Choices and Changes

     Fourteen years ago, I made a choice. A choice that changed my life forever. I chose to become a full-time mom to my son Francis. I gave up my studies. I knew I had a choice back then, my husband was very supportive as well as my mother, and my sister-in-law, who offered to take care of my baby so I can go back to school and finished my studies. I refused because the only thing that I wanted was to be with my son, to take care of him, to make sure that he grew up feeling secured and loved (I wasn't too happy about my childhood, you see, I didn't want the same for my kids). I didn't care much about the future. All the while I thought I would be forever contented with what I was doing. I was wrong of course, as time passed by, I became bored, I longed for a change, I wanted to do something different. But it was too late. I already had three kids then. It was impossible for me to get away from my motherly duties. I had no choice. I lived each day thinking about the chances and opportunities that I had wasted. I forced myself to accept the fact that there was nothing I could do about my situation. I felt useless and stupid. This went on for years. I even came to a point where I hated myself so much, not that I regret being a mother but because I felt like I was the most useless person in the world.  
      It's true that life never runs out of surprises and unexpected turns. Just as I was about to lose hope, a new opportunity came along. I met someone who made such a difference in my life. She introduced Homebased Online Jobs to me. That was a perfect timing. My kids were getting older and our expenses were getting higher. I was given a new hope. For the first time in my existence, I was actually working and earning money. It was hard to believe that I found a convenient job. I was able to earn money by working in the comfort of my home. I met different people. I was fulfilled and happy. After seven months, my Korean boss hired me to be her Operation Manager. I couldn't believe my luck. I say it's pure luck because I don't think I'm good enough for the job. Of course, trust also played a big part. It's a dream come true for me. From a bored housewife to an online English tutor and manager, this is too much for me. I prayed for a miracle. God gave me so much. I am truly blessed. ^^