A christmas wish

Margaret and my simple tree.

     Time flies too fast. It feels like it was only yesterday I was doing Christmas shopping for my kids. I was decorating my tree and thinking of gifts for my niece and nephews. December is here again. I am longing for the familiar feeling that always washes through me whenever the month of December is approaching. I just noticed that over the years, things had been changing. Today is the 2nd day of December, I still can't feel the cold breeze and at the same time the warmth of the season, where is that familiar scent of Christmas? I can't find it anywhere. Is it just me or is it how things are these days? I grew up longing for a perfect Christmas, maybe there is really no such thing as perfect Christmas. But still I have this weird feeling that something is always missing on Christmas Days. I already had 34 Christmas days, some of them I  don't remember well, others just became hazy memories because there were nothing good and special about them.
     So here I am again wondering what is that "thing" that I have been missing over the years. I think I know what it is. It actually started with the wish I made when I was 7 years old. I STILL want to spend Christmas with my mom. We will decorate a Christmas tree together, wrap gifts, prepare and eat dinner together and we will be taking photographs on Christmas eve. Nothing could be more special than that.